Remember how my Granny knitted me a square because I wanted a positive piece of my Granny to be with me through chemo. Well, it turns out my gorgeous daughter has also knitted me a square and I can’t wait to see it. She is going to bring it to chemo tomorrow to visit me and deliver the square. I was telling my mum over the phone during our nightly 5:30pm phone catch ups about these squares and said, I might collect enough squares that I can possibly make a rug out of.
How awesome would that be? (hint hint). Personally, I can’t knit but I do love the idea of squares coming along, unmatched but with their own specialness. Mum has agreed to make one too.
Accalia (daughter) has advised me hers has holes in it but really, who cares? She has made this square for me. Just like my Granny did and just like my mum is about to.
Yes, tomorrow is Spa Day commonly known as chemo. This will be the first of many and I want to thank everyone for their text messages, emails and blog messages of kindness and well wishes.
What concerns me is that I am not as worried as everyone else is expecting me to be. Does that make sense? I keep getting asked how I am coping and sending me best wishes which is all lovely and such but whilst I am not concerned about the Spa Therapy, people seem very confused that I am not.
Maybe I’ll be worried more so tomorrow than now because it is still a day away.
Here are my two girls, Kelly and Accalia.
That’s so sweet of your daughter.
Both of your babies look beautiful.
I think it’s great that you are not scared. It is normal to be but all will be fine because chemo is easier to handle than ever before. It’s doable.
I wonder if part of that lack of fear has to do with knowing that you will taking care of your body by doing the chemo. Saving your good cells. When I stopped chemo I was actually nervous, which is also normal.
Good luck tomorrow. I’ll be thinking of you.
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