I’m Bald and I’m OK

After the shower – This is what I combed out

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After drying and styling my hair

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This is halfway through my ‘session’ – Sam is loving pretending to be my french hair stylist

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This is the end result

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So, I thought I would have been waiting longer before the big shave but OMG, when the locks start falling, they fall in a big way. Yesterday i ran my hands through my itchy head and pulled out a reasonable sized lock of hair. I waited. I looked. Nope, no tears. I cried looking at another bloggers photos of her holding her hair in her hand but it didn’t happen when I held mine.

Sam came home from work and you know how sometimes when you have to tell someone something and you think you are going to be ok but as soon as you start speaking, you start blubbering and crying and stuff? Well, I thought this would happen to me but nope, I showed him my locks of hair I’d pulled out and he wanted to have a go. He ran his hands through my hair and nope, he got nothing so it really was a non event. He was even a bit disappointed to have not managed to get a handful of my hair can you believe!?

Today, whole new story. I did the whole ‘tug’ on my hair when I woke and nothing happened so I thought, oh, that must have just been a one off and a coincidence because yesterday was day 14 after the spa therapy (chemo) and the spa nurses said hair loss would occur at day 14. Well blow me down with a feather – where they not spot on or what?

Anyhoo, I was having my loving morning cuppa and a few, shall we say, tendrils of hair, fell onto my keyboard. Shit. This was not going to work for me. Then there was the odd hair on my arm and I am not one for feeling tickly spider web feelings on my body so I managed my way to the shower expecting all of my hair to fill the drain but again, hardly a hair came out. I thought I was imagining the hair loss. Maybe I was going to be one of those people who only had mild hair loss.

I had seen on other blogs and read other stories where the shower is when it all happens. Like in the olden days, remember the movie ‘psycho’? The fear on her face? Backed up against the tiled wall. That is how I expected I would be. Ok fine, she was about to be stabbed to death from memory and all I was about to face was hair loss but my shower experience was more like a scene from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I was singing away and having quite a lovely time until it was time to get out.

Drying off and sorbelining myself was all well and good until it was time to comb the hair and goodness me, there was an absolute mountain of hair! LIke seriously, the hair loss was incredible. I looked at my head expecting to see big bald spots but nope, no bald spots but a big mountain of hair was there, on the vanity unit looking at me.

So now, I am balding my way through life and whilst it is chilly, at least I can put my hair dryer, dry shampoo, hair straightener, hairspray, straightening serum, Nioxin Shampoo and Conditioner, Hair Treatments and Hair ties all away and make for a clean and tidy vanity unit.

I hope my naked head doesn’t frighten or scare anyone. I hope I dont create any nightmares or fears for anyone. I have had so many lovely messages, emails and texts saying I am inspiring and even making people less frightened of the ol’ mammogram and ultrasounds etc. Dont let the bald head change all that. It will grow back and I will be wishing for beautiful thick lovely curly locks this time instead of the thin drab hair I had previously.

Here is the final photo… what I like to call, the crime scene

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7 thoughts on “I’m Bald and I’m OK

  1. Welcome to the club, Ms Baldy Head! After the first shock, I found my Head quite liberating! Yes, some people will stare, and some will give you that “poor you” pitying look, but I say, f**k ’em! Didn’t bother me a bit, I just looked them right in the eye, Western style. Ka boom.

    My husband said the savings on hair products was amazing!

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    1. Hahah love that you are positive and funny like me! Ms Baldy Head indeed!! I am not at all concerned about having a shaved head. It is what it is. I figure people with either think I am a lesbian or I have cancer. Think what they want, I dont really care.

      What kind of shampoo and soap are you using? I tried a baby soap and it felt like it was burning my face. I have baby shampoo which seems ok but am thinking I might go for something more natural. Have you found any issues with products on your new ‘head’?

      haha I am sure there will be a huge saving on hair products πŸ™‚

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  2. You look ready.

    When my hair started to fall out, I had clear spots all over my head — looked pretty weird. I felt so much better after shaving my head.

    I wore my wig whenever I went outside. Sometimes I wore a hat. I spent most of my chemo days indoor. You have to feel right. I think it’s not about other people. It is about us and how comfortable we feel about exposing our illness and how ready we are to face people’s reactions. I think you’ll be fine. cancer shouldn’t be news to anyone.

    Your hair might start to grow back during Taxol.

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    1. Thankfully it is winter here in Australia so lots of hats and beanies will be used I’m sure but I’m comfy with my head. I have had such lovely comments and feedback via facebook from friends and family at at the end of the day, it is about how we feel isn’t it?

      Did yours start to grow back with Taxol?

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  3. Good for you!! I am glad that you feel so good about it πŸ™‚
    I remember the relief of having it all done.
    I use a shampoo bar from a brand called Lush… they use all natural stuff. It smells lovely and does the job! i also enjoy having a MUCH tidier bathroom and vanity table.

    You look great! X

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    1. Thank you for letting me copy your post. It was because of your post and hair cut that I thought, what a great idea. πŸ™‚ I will look into lush and see if I can find it.

      How annoying are the little prickle hairs coming out though? But yes, it was nice to be able to put away all of the hair accessories and now, not to find long hairs all over the place πŸ™‚

      Thank you, as do you xx

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